Rainbow comes after the rain :)

After all the up and down, the rainbow finally came. I will learn to be positive.

Actually, in life everything haf 2 sides. It just depends which side you are looking at it. If life is always up then we will not appreciate it that much. It's the up and down that complete the whole story.

I am thankful to what i have now and i promise that i will not give up easily. instead i will cherish and look after it. wait for it to grow and blossom.

That's the main reason why i started this blog. To record the memories of our relationship and to remind myself someone is always out there for me. :)

Happy Zhong Qiu Jie

Yeah HApPY ZhONG QIU JIE~~

Miss Piggy and Mr Piggy went chinese garden today to celebrate. Its pretty nice..strolling around, admiring the nice decorations out there. Somemore, we got a lovely ballon..although it is abit troublesome..hahaha

Yes..we took alot of nice fotos.. hmm, miss piggy will definitely post them shortly.
haha..look at the compatible couple in the pic..alot ppl sure envious.

It is a nice trip anyway and both of us enjoyed. Don't worry..there will be more coming up. I more excited about the Bangkok trip end of yr!!

muack muack~~

:)

lost?

I guess we are both lost.
I find it a joke to know that both of us are lost after so long.
I am not being sarcastic but I really feel so.

Actually, even before we start, I already know the differences between us.
It is really too easy to fall in love. But to really get out of it would be very hard.

Been asking myself, is my expectations of a boyfriend too high that it is not achievable? If that is really the case then perhaps like what I used to say last time. I should be better off single instead of giving people problems once a while. Nobody owe me a living to keep accomodating to me. Even if he/ she is willing to accomodate, how long will it be? 1 mth, 2 mth, 1/2 a yr, 1 yr? or 30 yrs? Hahahaa...

I think the main issue is we are two very different kind of person. In terms of social life. You are too wild for me to handle I would say. No doubt, I am a curious person and that's leads to me thinking how are things like before me. How havoc will you? It is easy to say please ignore it, this is the real me now. But come on, how many of us can really ignore?

I do not know what the future holds. I know i will be sad if i lose you. But I know this cannot go on. I feel it is important to lead a life of ours and no more your life and my life because i am looking at the future.

But if you are losing yourself because of me, then perhaps it is time to set yourself free.

I do not want to regret, read this when you have the time. http://berngrace.blogspot.com/

what you really wan!

you expect :

1. a bf who is a non smoker
2. a bf who dun drink so much
3. a bf who dun socialise so well
4. a bf who act calm at all times
5. a bf who dun keep scold vulgarities
6. a bf who can sms/contact/+++ u most of times
7. a bf tis..tat..here..there
8. a bf who updated u things..cannot give u sudden suprises

we been arguing so much recently. YES i know my temper is BAD! But bear in mind..even my friends know, johnny won't angry out of sudden. I normally react when ppl provoke me...and very sorry when during tat time, its very very hard for me to keep calm..and i dun give face to whoever u are.

i dun noe how to explain.. i could say i been trying to cater my own needs..my work..and u. i could say i giving u alot attention and love. however, there are still so much things to debate about.. juz look at above, these are all the stuff that you are looking..hoping..expecting

Sorry.. i trying..i trying..i doing!! i dun noe whether u are adaptive or watever. i need just someone sayang me and understand me rather than asking me or expecting do so much things at one go. i am still a human.. who need space and time alone too.

aiya..i duno how to explain or say..or even can't be bothered. is like sometimes i noe u concern abt me..but words just dun stick well together. In the end, they sound ugly again...

anyway, i could tell u frankly, i am really ok with u. And its more of i pose more problems to you. Its like very hard for you to "adapt" to me or accept me overall of how i act or do or think.
i really lost.............

Life

I think life is wierd and God is amazing.
Whenever, things are on the right track or the highest peak, somehow you will suddenly fall to the lowest point. It is just like a parabola or sine or cosine graph. Alright that's the best description I can give. Hmm...
Why are things like that? Is that because then we will appreciate our life? Appreciate and enjoy it when we are happy? Then later pray hard that the bad part will go off as soon as possible. That's why i say God is amazing... Don't you think so?
Humpf! I am feeling stressed up. Dun understand why we have to be responsible for things that are none of our concern. Things that you cannot control. It is like totally beyond your control! So what you want me to do? Eyes on them? Might as well I do it for them.
Not just this. Some other issues too! ARGG! I hate it.

Will do the life graph and relationship relations when I am more free. To de-stress and to entertain myself! Yap...

This is getting boring! Someone please post or write something!
Ahh! I have to crack my head to think of ideas...

Grow Old With You

Artist(Band):Adam Sandler

I wanna make you smile,
Whenever you're sad.
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad.
All I wanna do,
Is grow old with you.

I'll get you medicine,
When your tummy aches.
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks.
Oh it could be so nice,
Growin' old with you.

I'll miss you, kiss you,
Give you my coat when you are cold.
Need you, feed you.
Even let you hold the remote control.
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink.
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink.
Oh I could be the man,
Who grows old with you.

I wanna grow old with you.

Teacher's Day Present

From my most unexpected student (my hubby) :)

Teaching

i vividly remember 16 years ago during school assembly, i was asked what is my ambition. Without second thoughts, i said i want to be a teacher. I am glad and thankful that 16 years later I manage to fulfill my dream and be a teacher.

I remember I came in with this perfectionist mentality that I hope to touch life and change students. But I guess it is kind of difficult to achieve that and to have a perfectionist thinking is unhealthy. I remember a fren then who is now my bf told me that the society is made up of many different kinds of people. If everyone is very successful then who is going to do those dirty job. It really make me ponder and i guess i finally understood what he is driving at. :)

I personally feel that to want to teach and to be able to teach is different. You can have great dreams and ideas but if you cannot relate to students and help them in both their content knowledge and psychologically. You are not fit to a teacher. Though I cannot say I am doing a good job now but at least I can say my conscious is clear.

I sincerely hope that students will not disappoint their parents anymore and to people (esp dear, dad and mum) around me who have been supporting me wholeheartedly, THANK YOU! :)